Why nights. Why me? Why us? Why her? Lucy has had a really rough few nights (like usual). She was awake from 12:00 - 4:00 am, and then again at 6:00 am - 12:00 pm, SERIOUSLY. She finally took a nap for 30 minutes, and I know that is all I will get out of her until around 3:30 when she will take another 30 minute nap. Again, I ask Why me? Why us? Why her? Then she may or may not take another 30 minute nap this evening...then probably stay up late and wake up soon after that.
It is in those critical hours during the night I ask those critical questions. I hate asking those questions. I hate living those moments of frustration. I hate wondering what is wrong with me, with us, with her. Really, there is nothing wrong with us. That is all there is to it. We are all healthy. We have a healthy little girl who smiles and crinkles her nose. We are so blessed and I am so lucky to be Lucy's mom.
That is why today I am going to ask a much better question....Why not me? Why not us? Why not her. So when pity sets in I need to remember to ask...Why not give us this trial....we can handle it, and we have. I can survive on 3 hours of sleep. I can get through these harder times because I have trust in my Heavenly Father. He will not give me a trial I am not fully capable of surviving. So today I ask WHY NOT ME?